A little sunshine

Today, I received a letter from India. It was from a little girl whom I have helped for a month. But due to some financial breakdown, I didn't send my donations for at least two months already. I hope I could send it over by this month, God's willing.:)

That letter was short and simple. It was written by a lady who's the sponsorship operation coordinator in India. I was touched by the content that I almost cried. The letter begins in this:

"Dear sponsor,

Namaste (Indian greeting style)

My name is Aajra Begum. Wish you a very Happy New Year. Thank you for sending me colour and colouring book. These gifts are very helpful for me in my studies. Climate is very cold here.

Thank you."

My tears filled my eyes. I feel sympathized. I wish I could provide her the best out of me for the sake of her education. It's my dream and it's what I want to be.

Though I can't watch you growing up, I hope you will be perseverance and determined to go through every single thing in your life. It's the life that you must live to the fullest. It's the life that you must cherish no matter how hard or how difficult it is. Life gets going even for me. You will certainly succeed one day Aajra! :')

Aajra, study hard and do all that you can to break this chain of poverty. I'm always here with you to support you in whatever means. I promise.

Sat-ur-day

It's a Saturday and every Saturday, I have to attend a long 3 hours class for this subject called photojournalism.

It's one of the subjects in my pathway (I'm doing a journalism course :) ) and I love this subject to the max!

It's where I learnt how to capture things, people (basically everything) where moments present only at that particular time.

It's time to go out from my comfort zone, getting myself equipped with the following:

i) a camera (Top most priority!!!)

ii) a tripod (man, you're so important to me especially for night shots! =P )

iii) my BROS branded water bottle (I'm a water tank, which means I drink a lot but when comes to finding a loo outside gives me a major headache.:P)

iv) Handphones (I need a 'ring'! I get those grumpy faces from friends easily when I didn't answer their calls. Luckily my acts didn't get on their nerves yet. If not, they would throw tantrums on me. =/)

and finally...

last but not least,

my GREEN purse! xD that's where I put my student ID card, resident card, and some cash in it. but lately, my coins have been falling out just because the zip could not be undone anymore.

I'm waiting for someone to get me a new one though! ^^

just realised I have been talking much about my subject. My main intention is to tell you about my Saturday.:)

So, basically after my class, I will drop by at the stationary shop to buy a newspaper. I normally buy The Star coz I like the way the news are written; it's very organized and the language used are simply beautiful and understandable (no, I'm not exaggerating here. maybe other news suit you better depending on your interest. As for me, I love reading stories from a section called 'Be Inspired'. I guess that's where I get my inspiration from apart from my close family members and good friends.:)

Since it's also lunch time, I normally will ask if anybody are able to have a 'lunch date' with me. xD If they couldn't make it, I will just eat by myself or worse, pack my food home which I hate to do-I'm sure you know why ohh earth lovers!

Back home, I tend to laze around my laptop, surfing the net and read other people's blogs for self-enrichment. Sometimes, I would spend the entire afternoon curling up with books that have been kept in the rack for so long.

Recently, I just bought a novel 'Eat, Pray, Love' for RM20 only coz it's from a Taiwan publication. Trying my best to finish reading 'em before July comes in. No solid reason, it's just what I want to accomplish this month.:) Sometimes, I would take a nap although I tried hard not to coz that will make me even lazier+tired after waking up from a blissful afternoon sleep.

So yeah... that's about it. Something odd about this post...

Coz I've just told you a secret...

A secret about my Saturday's ingredient (been obsessed with the funny lines in Kung Fu Panda 2. hahaha)

Have a blessed weekend ahead! God bless! =)

The beginning

Today My Life Begins
(another favourite song of mine by Bruno Mars)

I've been working hard so long
Seems like pain has been my only friend
My fragile heart's been done so wrong
I wondered if I'd ever heal again

Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
All around me I can feel a change (ohh)

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting, it's mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins

Yesterday has come and gone
And I've learn how to leave it where it is
And I see that I was wrong
For ever doubting I could win

Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
All around me i can feel a change (ohh)

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting, it's mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins

Life's to short to have regrets
So I'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget
We only have one life to live
So you better make the best of it

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting, it's mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting, it's mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins...

This song speaks to me about life. Despite the ups and downs, life is meaningful to me just as how He has been faithful to me.

Hope you like this song too.:)

Abandoned

I saw it right there

underneath the dark gloomy blue rack

lifeless, filthy and deserted

and no one seems to care about it

to touch it

to feel it

to wear it

or to even take a glimpse of it

not anymore.

Her life was indeed short

shorter than I thought

as never would I know

it'd end like this

my heart was really broken

not knowing what actually happened

as there was only silence.

I wish she could carry me longer

and bring me wherever I may go

as long as she is capable of carrying

and I capable of walking

till that very day

when fate pave its way.

Here I wish

(I know it's very late for me to say this...)

the sentence 'YES, you may wear' has never been uttered

so I could still put

both of my feet on you

and storming the streets

feeling rest assured

'cause there's you.

I, once the proud owner of you

has just shed a tear for two

and is now a sad girl feeling blue.

Wish I'll always have you...

Ipanema...='(

Home sweet home =)

I'm back to Miri! I'm just so happy to be back home, to be with my family and friends. I miss my bedroom, my bed, my study table and my wardrobe. I miss everything here. Not to forget, my grandma's cooking, the hill I used to jog, the shopping malls that I normally frequent, Tanjung beach where I used to play, the bread and tarts I usually buy at Hot Cross bun and Ma Baker (my favourite bakery shops), the school I used to teach and the students (gosh~ I miss them so much now), my former schoolmates (yes, I managed to meet up with some of them! Had a total fun catching up with their lives, yeah! =D ) and to sum up, the entire city. Just, EVERYTHING!

Time flies as fast as when I was in KL. People say that I enjoy living my life. Yes, I really do. Perhaps that is the reason why I rarely grumble about small little things which seem like a stumbling block in my life because I know nothing can stop me from doing what I love to do. Unless I'm being pessimistic or hypocrite, I don't even dare to imagine what sort of life will turn out to be for me. I salute people who can remain salient, and possess sangfroid attitude when life throws them a curveball. I just keep reminding myself, 'Stay happy the way you are and be yourself!' That's the way of life. =)

~michelle~

All the things you never know

I think he's a really nice person

he's the sort of person who put others first before him

He loves his family very much

and I believe almost everybody does

I bet he'll love his family too when he has one in the future

he cares about people whom he loves a lot

he said 'Don't walk alone and remember, bring along pepper spray!'

'Okay!' I said but not the last item

'cause I never have one (* laughing xD)

And I never walk alone in the dark

'cause I walk everyday in the light

He will keep you updated

with his day-to-day happenings in his life

like what he is doing at this present moment or later on

Sometimes, he will tell you jokes

jokes that will make you laugh even when you are in the middle of something

Sometimes, he will share with you how he feels about you

within the sincerity of his heart

When he's not happy, you could sense that he is

'Cheer up!' are the most essential words to say

to make him feel that he's not the only one at bay

When he has a problem, he'll not keep it on his own

instead, he'll seek your advice on the way things should be keep in line

He can be quite emotional at times but he won't let you know

unless you manage to find out why

He will cry if he knows that things are hard deep inside

I told him, 'Men don't cry'

and he said 'That's only a lie'

And when he can't control his emotions, he'll hurt himself

which I don't see eye to eye

but I do understand why

putting myself in his shoe

I wish someone can be by my side too

to overcome life's conundrums together

and face life's challenges with confidence

This is the story of a friend

whom I have known for ages

who now resides in my heart

now and always.

Now that you know

about all the things you never know.

~michelle~

She knows, they know, everyone knows

Last night, my house mate Denise and I had a sharing on what we had been through throughout the day yesterday. I can't tell how many times I had teary eyes because Denise's stories made me laugh gleefully! I like the way she imitated her friend, a Chinese guy who's an English educated person in every single actions and words spoken by him. Both of them, they are really funny! I seriously think that they can come up with a comedy or something. haha! =D

On the serious part, she shared with me about the personal life experiences that she had witnessed in others as a testimony to Christians so that we won't follow in their footsteps. Before things get out of hand, it is always better to seek God for His guidance in our decision making process because the Bible has stated clearly that whatever He wants us to do, it is to please Him in a godly manner. He knows what is best for us. In fact, He knows what is best for me. I feel so anxious so as to see who will be that someone to appear in my life. All that I have to do is to pray earnestly and to see that God's promises for me are yet to come true. I'm patiently waiting for that to happen now. =) Our chat continued until 2am something. We agreed to wake up at 8am which both of us successfully did. And we had breakfast together although Denise joined me a bit later. Having another final paper to go which falls on next Monday, I just want to be focused in my studies and I pray that I will be able to get at least a satisfying grade. Thanks, Denise for the meaningful sharing. I'm more assured in my actions, and I know I'm still conscious. It's never too late for me and I know I have the choice to decide on my next course of action. Do keep me in prayers as I keep you in mine. Thanks!

~michelle~