A meaningful memoir

I don't know how he knew about the website. I don't know how I got it there. One day when I open my mailbox, I saw AYA Awards 2010 as the title and quickly opened the mail without hesitation. Initially, I thought it was another spam; or something that doesn't interest me at all. However, curious, I opened and read the content. It said I was nominated by the public. I was speechless. Who on earth could the stranger be or whoever the public is? With the link highlighted in blue, I clicked on it to find out. As I scrolled the bar towards the bottom, I saw my name. Whoa! I couldn't believe it! This was the first time I see my name being published on a website! It's like, you see something written by you and it got published. Isn't that cool? The only difference is, I didn't write that but it got published! The question is, again, WHOOOoo?


Michelle Liong Fong Fong
“…sacrificed her time, energy and money just to get the best for me….”

I then clicked on the "Read more" button because I want to read more. I was kinda excited actually.

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My sister has brought a deep impact into my life. Without her I might not be where I am today. She sacrificed her time, energy and money just to get the best for me. For example, during my high school, she took the pain to walk the distance just to buy a drink for me as I felt really thirsty after a long walk. Although she was tired, she dismissed my suggestion that I went to buy the drink instead. As parents are divorced, she was like my parents. every morning she will wake up early to prepare breakfast for us. She will also remind me to drink more water. I felt touched because she cared so much for me, and in the process neglected herself. In times of need, she will motivate me. I found comfort in having such a good sister. I am really lost for words. She was the only one who I can depend on. I would say my position as a headboy was due to her motivation and guidance. We felt very lonely at home as our father does not care much about our everyday life. however, we learn how to be independent and I can bear testimony that i have learnt so much from her. She is not a bright student, however, that is not the barrier for her to succeed. Sometimes I could see the sadness she is experiencing. I even brought her to tears for scolding her at one point. I realised my mistake and I know she loves me so much. She always stresses that I am her only brother, because we have a stepbrother, and she would do everything to make sure I will succeed. She is also a person who is very willing to help her friends. One of them told me that she is a very kind-hearted person. For instance, she had even thought of donating her organ as a contribution to the society. She is a truly remarkable sister which i could not describe in words. She has done so many things which I could not name all here. For this, she deserves to win this Award as a tribute to her exemplary effort in being a sister and friend. - Louis Liong Wei Wei

My heart was saddened as I reflect back on our childhood memories. I almost cried but I didn't. I viewed this e-mail when I was in a public place. I was completely touched by the way he wrote about me. He knew me well enough to have come up with this. It was a very meaningful memoir about me and my life. It is something that I will always remember about a brother of mine who cherishes his sister.

-michelle-

Testing my faith...

God is testing my faith not just for Him but also for my friend; who has been ill for days. Never did I know about the news until I viewed his social networking site. Only then I realized my instinct to contact him a few days ago was right. I regretted deeply for not doing so. Why, I asked; why when something bad happened only then I am conscious? I guess I am just being selfish.

I wonder how many times I have shed my tears for you, my friend. It was hard for me to see you enduring in pain and suffering throughout the treatments. Yes, those were intended to make you well once again. Undaunted by the whole process, you still smiled to those who visited you when you were lying on the hospital bed. I was struck by how tough and strong you were in difficult times. The unceasing support and motivation from the people known to you, I must say; have made you grow even stronger to persist on. My prayer is with you, my friend. God sees what you have been through and He heals you. May you recover soon!

God loves you always...
~michelle~

When he was here...

I cooked dinner, lunch and prepared breakfast during his three nights stay here since Friday evening. Those preparations were time consuming but it was nothing compared to the joy of being able to spend time together as siblings. Upon reaching my place, he talked a lot about his life in his college, how he deals with his studies and even friendships. I got a very interesting point from him, which is true friendship. Friends come and go and only true ones will stay by your side. I start to ponder, if it really lasts, then what about relationship? Can relationship lasts like how true friendship does? I think it depends very much on how you play your role as someone who values friendship. It's either you gain from it or you lose it.

So, yeah, that was basically about it. We also gossiped like what we sometimes do on the phone. Guys do gossip too. Haha! Not that we like to talk about all this crap but in some ways, it makes me realize how time has actually took me away from spending goody good time with my brother. Though we are not so far apart (it takes him not more than 2 hours to reach my place), I am constantly reminded that things should not be taken for granted. I just want to give my best out of the very best and make good use of every opportunity that knocks on my door. Life is a bliss when someone says "You are loved." Life is even more blissful when someone says "I love you!"

Looking back, moving forward

It happened yesterday. Yes, yesterday. Those days were once filled with laughter, but sadness made up most of the pie. Partly because I could not bear the pain seeing someone leave for a purpose. A purpose-driven life, as one of the Christian books name it. Leaving someone doesn't mean you are going to be stranded and being left alone in a desert or whatnot. It doesn't sound that bad actually. Cause this is the time for you to strive even harder to achieve something within your grip and rely on your own in doing multiple tasks. Initially, I lacked the encouragement and motivation. It was these thought of mine that conquered me till I delved into an abyss of depression. Sleepless nights bugged me through the dark, gloomy skies and sometimes, I wet my pillow without being aware of it. Somehow, I found it hard to let go. But, I must give it a go. I did.

More than a year has passed. Things had changed tremendously. There is hope for everything. I felt glad with the decision made. It was meant for the benefit of all. Financially, self-sufficiency, and other reasons known to the one who knew it. God has been so gracious to him. God was there all the time.

Settled down in a place where he longed to be, he finally found his own destiny to fulfill his dreams. He worked extra hard not just to get what he wants, but to get what he deserves to get. He made it.

You're in my heart,always...

I remembered vividly bout my teacher who taught me during my secondary years up to form 5. In that same year, she left in Dec back to her hometown in Penang. I did not have the chance to attend her farewell gathering as I was already in Kuching the day after sitting for my last paper in SPM.

I attended her bm tuition when i was in form 1. I just love going to her tuition class! I learned a lot of vocab and i used them frequently in my essays. Besides, she always updated us with news headline and what was happening in M'sia. I heard the news from her even before I read the newspaper!

When I was in form 2, I was in the same group as Yii Zhu, Grace, Ai Vui and some others whom I can't remember. sorry,my friends. >< we tried our best to give the correct answers and fought towards the end. How happy we were when our group won! it was our never-say-die spirit that brought us to that level of achievements! each of my group members were awarded "Piala Sarjana" as promised by teacher. thanks everyone! we made it! =)

She also taught me acct when i was in form 4 and form 5. During her lessons, she introduced a lot of games n quizzez to make our class lively n interesting. The games,as I recalled were "Gladiator", "Electric", Kerusi Panas" and "Tawanan Perang". There are many other games but I couldn't remember them. My friends and I were looking forward to her class each time we finished our other lessons. We can't wait for the brain-twisting challenges as it had always been a tough start for us when came to answering the questions. Our teacher loves to ask us tricky questions and most of the time we got "trapped". Her different mimics and face expressions made us believed her answers. hahaha =) we were divided into groups and each group was given a little cute soft toy for us to press it when we got the answer. Sometimes, she would asked us to raise up our belongings or "Siapa cepat,angkat kaki!" hehe... and the whole class bursted into laughters! It was an unforgettable,yet sweet moments.

"Teacher, your encouragement, support and advices still carries me along til today although we have lost contact with each other. You inspired me to be someone which I've never thought of; someone full of potential, and calibre who can contribute to the country one day. I ought to be that someone, and I really want to. I remembered you once said that you will come to visit us when we have successfully established our own companies in the future. Those are dreams that are yet to become a reality. I just hope to see you again in times to come. My memories of you will never fade. You're in my heart,always."

A joyful day

Finally the moment everyone is waiting for had arrived. i was still in school when the clock striked 12pm. that time,i was busy marking my students' test papers. my hands went numb and cold. my heart beats were so fast that i barely could breath properly. the time when i finish marking the last paper, i felt good and happy inside. my student got a perfect score for maths. how brilliant! =) i text my dad asking his whereabouts. thank goodness, he was at home. =)
"Dad,can u come to school later? I need your support. thanks!" i admit that i sounded babyish. but i really need him to be there when i get my results.

i packed my books,placed them into the rattan basket and made a move. i remembered my principal's cup of comfort: "It's already there. Worries can't change anything for the better neither for the worse too. Everything will be fine." i heed her words.

while on my way to school, i sang the song that goes like:

for You are great...
You are beautiful so great...
there is no one else like You...
there is no one else like You...

a very touching song that stirred up my emotions. i tried hard not to shed a tears as i knew that nothing could be changed. i felt worried,nervous,scared,all at once. somehow, i managed to ward off those feeling when i thought of what Jesus said in the book of Matt 6:34,
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."

just as i reached my school, i walked along the stretch of hilly road with a heavy heart. my mind were full of questions. "what will i get?" "what if i couldn't make it into local uni?" "how about my friends' results?" as i reached the notice board where the results are being displayed, i saw my classmate and asked her how was her result. she said she passed. i asked her mine 'cause i don't have the courage to see my result yet. she told me without hesitation that i passed.
"really?"
"yes. you see it now."
i cried.

my other classmates, i would like to call them; "The 4 Brilliants" were there and asked me whether i cried because i was happy or sad. i told them that i did not expect to get such results and it was beyond my expectations. i felt both grateful and thankful. i would say that this is truly a miracle! wow! =D i wish my friends "Congratulations" upon knowing that they got good results with pointer 3 and above. our hard work and effort were paid off handsomely. i'm very,very happy.=)

the words came true to me in the book of Matt 21:22 that says,
"Whatever things you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive."

Lord, You're awesome! i'm amazed by Your works. Continue to bless my friends with more and more good things as they keep themselves on the track towards a brighter future!
my dearest friends, i hope i can still see some of you in uni later! keep in touch and strive hard in all the things that you do! All the best! =)

A lone fish...

I'm alone in tis lake, a lake unknown to anyone except him. A lake without any visitors unless it is made known. A lake tat stood mightily and weather ol odds. If tat someone goes there for fishing, he will have to go bek hm empty-handed; as tat fish will neva swim 2wards d hook.

And he will kip waitin n waitin;while d fish will stay further frm d hook as it does not want to get hooked at tis moment of uncertainties. Frm d bright morning sunshine to d darkest of nite, hope he will still b there, patiently waitin 4 d fish 2 appear. If d fish cud juz b seen frm d surface, he wud b glad as d fish is in gud condition n havin d freedom to swim wherever it likes to.

Even when he goes bek hm, hope tis doesn't mean tat he will giv up hope. But will turn up again to d lake d next day; tomoro, d day after n wil neva stops cumin. One day, d lake will turn muddy and dirty. nevertheless, hope he wil stil cum 2 fish n visit d lake.

The Lord says, "Follow ME, and I will make you become fishers of men."
-MArk 1:17