All the things you never know

I think he's a really nice person

he's the sort of person who put others first before him

He loves his family very much

and I believe almost everybody does

I bet he'll love his family too when he has one in the future

he cares about people whom he loves a lot

he said 'Don't walk alone and remember, bring along pepper spray!'

'Okay!' I said but not the last item

'cause I never have one (* laughing xD)

And I never walk alone in the dark

'cause I walk everyday in the light

He will keep you updated

with his day-to-day happenings in his life

like what he is doing at this present moment or later on

Sometimes, he will tell you jokes

jokes that will make you laugh even when you are in the middle of something

Sometimes, he will share with you how he feels about you

within the sincerity of his heart

When he's not happy, you could sense that he is

'Cheer up!' are the most essential words to say

to make him feel that he's not the only one at bay

When he has a problem, he'll not keep it on his own

instead, he'll seek your advice on the way things should be keep in line

He can be quite emotional at times but he won't let you know

unless you manage to find out why

He will cry if he knows that things are hard deep inside

I told him, 'Men don't cry'

and he said 'That's only a lie'

And when he can't control his emotions, he'll hurt himself

which I don't see eye to eye

but I do understand why

putting myself in his shoe

I wish someone can be by my side too

to overcome life's conundrums together

and face life's challenges with confidence

This is the story of a friend

whom I have known for ages

who now resides in my heart

now and always.

Now that you know

about all the things you never know.

~michelle~

She knows, they know, everyone knows

Last night, my house mate Denise and I had a sharing on what we had been through throughout the day yesterday. I can't tell how many times I had teary eyes because Denise's stories made me laugh gleefully! I like the way she imitated her friend, a Chinese guy who's an English educated person in every single actions and words spoken by him. Both of them, they are really funny! I seriously think that they can come up with a comedy or something. haha! =D

On the serious part, she shared with me about the personal life experiences that she had witnessed in others as a testimony to Christians so that we won't follow in their footsteps. Before things get out of hand, it is always better to seek God for His guidance in our decision making process because the Bible has stated clearly that whatever He wants us to do, it is to please Him in a godly manner. He knows what is best for us. In fact, He knows what is best for me. I feel so anxious so as to see who will be that someone to appear in my life. All that I have to do is to pray earnestly and to see that God's promises for me are yet to come true. I'm patiently waiting for that to happen now. =) Our chat continued until 2am something. We agreed to wake up at 8am which both of us successfully did. And we had breakfast together although Denise joined me a bit later. Having another final paper to go which falls on next Monday, I just want to be focused in my studies and I pray that I will be able to get at least a satisfying grade. Thanks, Denise for the meaningful sharing. I'm more assured in my actions, and I know I'm still conscious. It's never too late for me and I know I have the choice to decide on my next course of action. Do keep me in prayers as I keep you in mine. Thanks!

~michelle~

My guardian angel

These few days, I wasn't doing well in my life. I came across lots of circumstances that required me to make my own decisions alone. I don't know who to turn to share my problems with. I reached a level where I desperately need someone to be by my side, to listen to me and at the same time, being there for me whenever possible. Where were you when I needed you most, dear Lord? I questioned. For countless time, I kept asking God in my prayers, wishing that He will grant my wishes. But God said to me, "Hang in there, Michelle." Alright Lord, I whispered in my heart. And Lord made me thought of her, a dear sister of mine attending the same church as me. I decided to call her. Just discharged from the hospital, she was as energetic as any athletic who does good sport, and we spoke through the phone, with my eyes welled up with tears. She prayed for me towards the end of our conversation. That was when I see hope, a hope that lasts.

After we hung up, I sat at one corner of my bed, and reflected back on what she had told me. Then as I tilted my head, I saw the bible. Without much hesitation, I grabbed the bible and came across the book of Colossians. My eyes were set on Col 3:18-19; "Wives, submit to your husbands, as is fitting in the Lord. Husbands, love your wives, and do not be harsh with them." I was like, wow! Why did God show me this passage? What was He trying to tell me? I was stunned for a moment before I realized something. All that He ever wanted from me is my faithfulness to Him just as how He has always been faithful to me! God, pardon me! :')

I received this inspiring message from sis. Marianne whom I spoke to on the phone. Her message touched me so deeply that I couldn't hold my tears. It was like raindrops showering over the earth. I was truly glad that I shared with her what I had been through and I thanked God for her, for being there for me during the lowest peak of my life. This is what she wrote to me:

Dear Michelle,

Thank you so much for being brave enough to share the dilemma that you are facing with me. I know that making hard decisions like this can be really painful, especially for you.
And dear Michelle, it's really godly of you to want to do the right thing that pleases our Lord.
Life as a Christian isn't easy. Choosing what pleases God above all our desires, all that we love and treasure and hold dear is indeed difficult. It's really a struggle sometimes.
But let me assure you, dear,dear sis, that God's will is always the best for us, even when it hurts. And when we don't understand why circumstances are the way that they are, there is one truth in the Bible that we can hold on to that God causes ALL things to work together for the good of those who love him, who are called according to his purpose- that he may conform us, changing us to become more and more like His Son, Jesus (Romans 8:28-29)! So, even through the good times and the hard times, through joys and sorrows, through difficult and easy decisions, we can trust that God is using ALL circumstances to mold us and change us, so that we may grow in Christ-likeness. And nothing can separate us from His great love!

I do hope to meet with you on Sat, dear sis. I will confirm this with you via sms by tomorrow. As for now, I will keep you in prayer. I know you are anxious, but I will pray that God will enable you to cast your anxieties upon him, for He does indeed care very much for you, dear sis (1 Peter 5:7).

There's this lovely song that I've often listen to whenever I am going through difficulties, and I hope that the words of this song will comfort you as well...

http://www.facebook.com/l/d0bc9PENROqWbeJSc4_7rAoJGLA;www.youtube.com/watch?v=OT8aTjVZHVI

Much love in Christ,
Marianne

October 15, 2010 at 1:07pm

Sis Marianne, thank you. :') Your words are so inspiring and powerful. I felt so much at ease now as God opened up my mind to think things through. He sent you to be my listening ears and now, I feel so happy to have you not only as someone dear to me, but someone who can be my guardian angel. You are my guardian angel! I heart you, till the very end...