Monday, November 15, 2010
Home sweet home =)
Friday, October 22, 2010
All the things you never know
I think he's a really nice person
he's the sort of person who put others first before him
He loves his family very much
and I believe almost everybody does
I bet he'll love his family too when he has one in the future
he cares about people whom he loves a lot
he said 'Don't walk alone and remember, bring along pepper spray!'
'Okay!' I said but not the last item
'cause I never have one (* laughing xD)
And I never walk alone in the dark
'cause I walk everyday in the light
He will keep you updated
with his day-to-day happenings in his life
like what he is doing at this present moment or later on
Sometimes, he will tell you jokes
jokes that will make you laugh even when you are in the middle of something
Sometimes, he will share with you how he feels about you
within the sincerity of his heart
When he's not happy, you could sense that he is
'Cheer up!' are the most essential words to say
to make him feel that he's not the only one at bay
When he has a problem, he'll not keep it on his own
instead, he'll seek your advice on the way things should be keep in line
He can be quite emotional at times but he won't let you know
unless you manage to find out why
He will cry if he knows that things are hard deep inside
I told him, 'Men don't cry'
and he said 'That's only a lie'
And when he can't control his emotions, he'll hurt himself
which I don't see eye to eye
but I do understand why
putting myself in his shoe
I wish someone can be by my side too
to overcome life's conundrums together
and face life's challenges with confidence
This is the story of a friend
whom I have known for ages
who now resides in my heart
now and always.
Now that you know
about all the things you never know.
~michelle~
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
She knows, they know, everyone knows
Thursday, October 14, 2010
My guardian angel
These few days, I wasn't doing well in my life. I came across lots of circumstances that required me to make my own decisions alone. I don't know who to turn to share my problems with. I reached a level where I desperately need someone to be by my side, to listen to me and at the same time, being there for me whenever possible. Where were you when I needed you most, dear Lord? I questioned. For countless time, I kept asking God in my prayers, wishing that He will grant my wishes. But God said to me, "Hang in there, Michelle." Alright Lord, I whispered in my heart. And Lord made me thought of her, a dear sister of mine attending the same church as me. I decided to call her. Just discharged from the hospital, she was as energetic as any athletic who does good sport, and we spoke through the phone, with my eyes welled up with tears. She prayed for me towards the end of our conversation. That was when I see hope, a hope that lasts.
After we hung up, I sat at one corner of my bed, and reflected back on what she had told me. Then as I tilted my head, I saw the bible. Without much hesitation, I grabbed the bible and came across the book of Colossians. My eyes were set on Col 3:18-19; "Wives, submit to your husbands, as is fitting in the Lord. Husbands, love your wives, and do not be harsh with them." I was like, wow! Why did God show me this passage? What was He trying to tell me? I was stunned for a moment before I realized something. All that He ever wanted from me is my faithfulness to Him just as how He has always been faithful to me! God, pardon me! :')
I received this inspiring message from sis. Marianne whom I spoke to on the phone. Her message touched me so deeply that I couldn't hold my tears. It was like raindrops showering over the earth. I was truly glad that I shared with her what I had been through and I thanked God for her, for being there for me during the lowest peak of my life. This is what she wrote to me:
Dear Michelle,
Thank you so much for being brave enough to share the dilemma that you are facing with me. I know that making hard decisions like this can be really painful, especially for you.
And dear Michelle, it's really godly of you to want to do the right thing that pleases our Lord.
Life as a Christian isn't easy. Choosing what pleases God above all our desires, all that we love and treasure and hold dear is indeed difficult. It's really a struggle sometimes.
But let me assure you, dear,dear sis, that God's will is always the best for us, even when it hurts. And when we don't understand why circumstances are the way that they are, there is one truth in the Bible that we can hold on to that God causes ALL things to work together for the good of those who love him, who are called according to his purpose- that he may conform us, changing us to become more and more like His Son, Jesus (Romans 8:28-29)! So, even through the good times and the hard times, through joys and sorrows, through difficult and easy decisions, we can trust that God is using ALL circumstances to mold us and change us, so that we may grow in Christ-likeness. And nothing can separate us from His great love!
I do hope to meet with you on Sat, dear sis. I will confirm this with you via sms by tomorrow. As for now, I will keep you in prayer. I know you are anxious, but I will pray that God will enable you to cast your anxieties upon him, for He does indeed care very much for you, dear sis (1 Peter 5:7).
There's this lovely song that I've often listen to whenever I am going through difficulties, and I hope that the words of this song will comfort you as well...
http://www.facebook.com/l/d0bc9PENROqWbeJSc4_7rAoJGLA;www.youtube.com/watch?v=OT8aTjVZHVI
Much love in Christ,
Marianne
Monday, September 13, 2010
Di's 19th Birthday =)
The clock ticked 12am and it was Friday, 10th September 2010 that this big day began.
I secretly organised this birthday surprise just for him. I invited his ex-schoolmate, Vincent, who studies in the same university as I do and few others whom he got to know here in church and another friend of mine who has the same name as him, Louis. haha...
And here we went. A Swiss chocolate cake I bought from King's Bakery (it's so cheap coz I got 40% off for that =D) just for him. It's yummy! My brother agreed even though he haven't tried it. Ridiculous huh? Well, he's right. After all, never judge a book by its cover. =)
The imminent candle blowing moment which followed by the cake-cutting ceremony was humbly accomplished with my brother making his wish/wishes (I wonder what was his wish =P ). In his usual nonchalant manner, he cut the cake and Vincent helped him to distribute the cakes. All of us had a good chat and a good laugh! My friend, Louis has a really good sense of humour. He made all of us laughed till our heads off! Two friends leave the house as they had something on so left the four of us: 2 Louis, Denise and me; laughing like a lunatic!
While they chatted, I took this opportunity to snap their pictures. Though most of the pictures are blur due to my shaky hands (or in other words, I'm unskilled ==|| ), I was satisfied enough because I can capture the elated moments of this small yet simple birthday party of his.=)
It was 1.30am when things officially ended. Sadly, moments will always be moments. It was something that happened in the past although moments ago, we were happily celebrating his birthday and now, the moments had come to a halt, not entirely but temporary because, hey...it's just midnight remember? We still had another whole day of Friday to celebrate it! So yeah, Happy Birthday to my dear Di Di! I hope that his birthday on that very day was memorable for him to be imbued in his mind, now and ever.
love from sis,
~michelle~
Saturday, August 14, 2010
As sweet as home
So, what's about the date? Well, I just moved to another unit which is 4 times higher than my previous unit on the 3rd floor. Moving into my friend's place who is also from Miri. I was really happy that time and I felt very excited. Partly because I got to stay with someone whom I know and share the same belief as me though we only know each other here in the university. But most importantly, I can finally inhale fresh air which I was deprived of for that 7 months in my old, sultry room. Leaving the room closed for just half a day gave me that sort of queasy feeling of unease. Most often than not, I chose to be outside in the living room or paved my way to the library to finish up my work. I just didn't feel like staying at home.
*This is the story of the room in the midday.
I recalled the first day when I moved into the room in January this year. I 'donated' my blood on that 'bloody' night. And this went on for 2 days. Throughout those nights, all I did was scratching here and there as both my hands and legs were bitten by mosquitoes! These uninvited guests entered my room through the open windows and all that I wanted was the flow of fresh air and not the scourge of inane mosquitoes! Since then, I didn't open the windows at all. The whirring sound of the ceiling fan annoyed me but I had no idea how to fix it. At least, the fan functioned well enough to 'cool' my humid room.
*This is the story of the room in the night.
Now that I am in a new home, I feel so much comfortable here. This place is like a family home to me. Because my friend's dad is staying with us, my friend and I cook more frequently. I learn a lot from her and we help each other in many ways not just in the kitchen but in building our relationship as friends and church mates. One time I got sick and she told her dad about it. In the morning after I woke up, I saw a box of Chinese medicines on the table outside. Then, my eyes were glued on the piece of note attached to it: 'Michelle, are you feeling better? See if this can help.' Underneath these words, there's an arrow pointing downwards to the box of medicine. I knew it was written by her dad. I felt so touched because they cared for me even though I'm just someone who aren't their family members. The funny thing about her dad was when he told me the one and only house rule. 'NO BOY FRIEND'. I told him I don't have one. But he said, "Soon..." =S
And my friend asked, "Brother le?"
"Brother can..." =D
I felt so happy when I heard that.=)
My wish for them is that they will live happily and staying healthy always even though they are far apart from the rest of the family members who are residing in Miri, my friend's mom and brother.
I'm just so glad to stay with them and this place is just as sweet as home.
God bless everyone in the house! ^^
~michelle~
Monday, August 9, 2010
Free day!!!
with bright, scorching hot sun that filled the air
as Qi and Michie walked down the road slope
passing by the guards who stood gallantly
right beside the guardhouse through the alley
I felt my heart was flying high, really
'cause I can finally play
to the fullest today
on our way to the university
safely guided by Him, Qi and Michie reached
all thanks be to God =)
Qi entered the exam hall with fame
while I wandered around the place with shame
time passed by without I realized
Qi came out from the hall on cloud nine
"Yay!" I shouted deep inside
and off we went for lunch
a treat to all the good work done.
It was just another good day
with bright, scorching hot sun that filled the air.
Good nights!
-michelle-
Saturday, July 24, 2010
A meaningful memoir
Michelle Liong Fong Fong
“…sacrificed her time, energy and money just to get the best for me….”
I then clicked on the "Read more" button because I want to read more. I was kinda excited actually.
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My sister has brought a deep impact into my life. Without her I might not be where I am today. She sacrificed her time, energy and money just to get the best for me. For example, during my high school, she took the pain to walk the distance just to buy a drink for me as I felt really thirsty after a long walk. Although she was tired, she dismissed my suggestion that I went to buy the drink instead. As parents are divorced, she was like my parents. every morning she will wake up early to prepare breakfast for us. She will also remind me to drink more water. I felt touched because she cared so much for me, and in the process neglected herself. In times of need, she will motivate me. I found comfort in having such a good sister. I am really lost for words. She was the only one who I can depend on. I would say my position as a headboy was due to her motivation and guidance. We felt very lonely at home as our father does not care much about our everyday life. however, we learn how to be independent and I can bear testimony that i have learnt so much from her. She is not a bright student, however, that is not the barrier for her to succeed. Sometimes I could see the sadness she is experiencing. I even brought her to tears for scolding her at one point. I realised my mistake and I know she loves me so much. She always stresses that I am her only brother, because we have a stepbrother, and she would do everything to make sure I will succeed. She is also a person who is very willing to help her friends. One of them told me that she is a very kind-hearted person. For instance, she had even thought of donating her organ as a contribution to the society. She is a truly remarkable sister which i could not describe in words. She has done so many things which I could not name all here. For this, she deserves to win this Award as a tribute to her exemplary effort in being a sister and friend. - Louis Liong Wei Wei
My heart was saddened as I reflect back on our childhood memories. I almost cried but I didn't. I viewed this e-mail when I was in a public place. I was completely touched by the way he wrote about me. He knew me well enough to have come up with this. It was a very meaningful memoir about me and my life. It is something that I will always remember about a brother of mine who cherishes his sister.
-michelle-
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Testing my faith...
I wonder how many times I have shed my tears for you, my friend. It was hard for me to see you enduring in pain and suffering throughout the treatments. Yes, those were intended to make you well once again. Undaunted by the whole process, you still smiled to those who visited you when you were lying on the hospital bed. I was struck by how tough and strong you were in difficult times. The unceasing support and motivation from the people known to you, I must say; have made you grow even stronger to persist on. My prayer is with you, my friend. God sees what you have been through and He heals you. May you recover soon!
God loves you always...
~michelle~
Monday, June 7, 2010
When he was here...
So, yeah, that was basically about it. We also gossiped like what we sometimes do on the phone. Guys do gossip too. Haha! Not that we like to talk about all this crap but in some ways, it makes me realize how time has actually took me away from spending goody good time with my brother. Though we are not so far apart (it takes him not more than 2 hours to reach my place), I am constantly reminded that things should not be taken for granted. I just want to give my best out of the very best and make good use of every opportunity that knocks on my door. Life is a bliss when someone says "You are loved." Life is even more blissful when someone says "I love you!"
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Looking back, moving forward
More than a year has passed. Things had changed tremendously. There is hope for everything. I felt glad with the decision made. It was meant for the benefit of all. Financially, self-sufficiency, and other reasons known to the one who knew it. God has been so gracious to him. God was there all the time.
Settled down in a place where he longed to be, he finally found his own destiny to fulfill his dreams. He worked extra hard not just to get what he wants, but to get what he deserves to get. He made it.